Wednesday, October 28, 2015

Sigh...I'm a Gemini!


 My First Children's Book!

Here I sit... 60 years old... attempting to begin a new career in writing children's books.
I'm a Gemini, so I always have conflicting feelings. Part of me is excited. Full of anticipation of things to come. Part of me worries that I waited too long. That it's too late to start a new career. That maybe I'm putting too much effort into starting a new life, while neglecting the life I already have.
What if I fail? What if I waste the last part of my life chasing a dream that never comes true?
What if I succeed and I discover that fame and fortune isn't what it's all cracked up to be? One day I might look up from my computer screen and find that my grandchildren are all grown up and I missed the time I could have spent with them.
Maybe if I'm successful, I'll leave behind books they can cherish and share with their kids. Maybe I'll be able to help them financially. Give them things they couldn't otherwise afford. We could take trips together. I could discipline myself to make sure I had lots of family time.
Even if I'm a failure as a writer, they will still have the books. I don't know. I hate being a Gemini. first children's book 'There's a Monster in My Closet' will be released on November 24th. I'm advertising it on Face Book so potential customers can order it early. I have my first book signing set for November 14th. I'm planning to reduce the price that my publisher set, as I think they are charging too much money. I hope I'm wrong. After all, they're the experts. Maybe I am worth more than I think. But it's a soft cover book. I asked them to make it available in hard cover, but they want $23 for each book. Would anybody spend $23 for a short children's book by a new, unknown writer? 
I checked out some of the best selling children's books on the market and they're hard covers are only $9.99. Sigh. I'm worried. I'm scared. I'm hopeful. I'm a Gemini.